THE LOST
By:
ZUHAIRA FADHILAH HAMZAH
What
would you do if you lost something?
And what would you feel if that
thing is very valuable to you?
And
what if,
The
thing that you lost is actually your own feeling?
This is a story about love and hope, a family and a
child’s dream and all were shattered into pieces because of just one bad
decision.
3rd
January 2012
That
day, it wasn’t like any other day in Tommy’s life, that day he was going to be
sent into his new school. He is going to be in the secondary level and this had
made him excited. The excitement of being older and nervousness of meeting new
people are all rushes inside him now. Moreover,
he is going to stay farther from his own comfort zone, he is going to stay in
the hostel.
“Are you nervous? I hope
you are okay because believe me this will be fun new experience for you buddy” said the father asking without even
waiting for the answer.
“Yeah, I’m fine. I am just
tired” Tommy lied.
Of course he feels nervous, he wasn’t supposed
to be tired at all but maybe because he’s sweating under his shirt that make
him feels tired. Tommy is a hard boy to love, he doesn’t know how to make
friend but once he loves, he loves with all his heart. He can’t stop thinking
about who is going to be his friend, he doesn’t know how to make first move in
friendship, it feels awkward for him to even start saying “Hi”, but he knew
that he needs to, everyone needs friend, he knew that.
5th March 2012
It
had been 2 months since he first entered the school, a lot of things going by.
He did make friends, but it feels like the friend that he made can just be
consider as ‘passer’,
“Tommy, can you come and
solve the equation?” his teacher called out his name in the
class like usual.
What
is interesting with Tommy is that, he is one of the brilliant boy, he could
almost be considered as the genius in the school, the teachers love him but you
know the rules in school, if the teachers like you meaning that, the students
will hates you not because they hate that you are brilliant, it just that they
felt insecure and jealous toward the love that Tommy get.
And that is what happened to Tommy,
he is hated for that.
But they don’t know that not all teachers love
him, some just treats him as badly as ever.
And what is worst, yet he too is not
being loved for that.
The
school that Tommy is now enroll is not the normal school like other people,
this is a private school, a catholic school on which apart from academic
studies, he too needs to learn and memorize what he learn in his religious
classes. People might see him as smart and genius academically but what they
didn’t see is that he is very bad in another part. He is struggling memorizing
everything, its not that he didn’t try, of course he did and he tried so much
but the thing is we should always know that people are not perfect. They tend
to be good on the other side until we didn’t see that there is also a part of
them that is not perfect. It happened to Tommy but his parents does not
understand that, they doesn’t want to send Tommy to the school of his choice,
they feel like by sending him to this type of school he will learn better and
progress faster than what he did back at the home. As for Tommy, he trust his
parents with his life as much as he loves them with all his heart make he
accept the decision and didn’t say any word to object it. With no one to share
the misery of the heart, he suffered so much. The dream that he had once hold
for so long finally break into pieces one by one.
He’s being bullied physically and
mentally, tortured in the surrounding depressed because of both by his
classmates and the teachers. He didn’t tell this to anyone, nobody would
believe him, he is known as smart and brilliant it would be a shame to admit
that he can’t memorize certain verses correctly and being punished for that. Thinking
of his own parents hope that he would be just fine and successful, how on earth
is he going to break the news to them and then shattered all the dreams that his
parents had build. He won’t do that, at least not now.
4th February 2013
A year
has finally passed, but he still has another 4 years to keep on standing, Tommy
really can’t continue anymore, he’s falling so hard that no one could ever
imagine, once a happy boy and loved by all his family had now becoming so
different. He becomes so quiet and a loner. Tommy already makes a decision. He
had decided about it for so long already, he is going to end everything that
make him suffered.
A night before, Tommy already make
an appointment with Charles, the boy who keeps on bullying him. Charles was a
boy with a tough body, not that brilliant but everybody fierce him, and he have
a group of another tough people consider as his follower which he acted as
their leader. Tommy wanted to discuss with Charles one to one without anyone
else disturbing them about his feeling and that he wants Charles to stop
bullying him and other people because he knew Charles didn’t only bullied him,
he bullied everyone else who looks weak in his eyes.
6th July 2013
“The
court had decided that Thomas Venille Wood is found guilty for killing Charles
Grey on 4th February 2013”
Today,
Tommy smile as he listened to the court, He could still hear Charles voice
shrieking in pain, he had lost his control that day, and he kept stabbing him
without even listening to Charles begging him to stop.
Since the day the accident happened,
he didn’t communicate well with anyone. Tommy stop going to school, he didn’t
talk to anyone not even his parents, he spend most of his time in his room
alone without any disturbance. When the police investigated him and asked him a
lot of questions it seems like only his body was there but his soul was already
dead together with Charles. He can’t feel anything anymore, he didn’t care at
all if his mother cried because of him or his father feels disappointed with
him or not. Down at the corner of the court, he can see his parents weeping
their eyes out but he didn’t feel anything, not sad, not happy, it feels like
he had lost them all. Tommy stood there firmly looking at all of the faces that
once he used to love with all of his heart, now it’s gone and he can’t get it
back.
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This is a story that had been book-published as one of the compilation of short stories from my classmates.
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This is a story that had been book-published as one of the compilation of short stories from my classmates.